Transition..

I have always forced myself to work in fields that would produce that most normal income possible or at least appear to. 

I have had numerous jobs, trades, skills and some jobs, trades and skills that meshed well with my untamed fascination with a particular subject, you spend too much time at work to hate what you are doing.

Some of my varied means of paying the bills have been medical assisting in a ob/gyn office, administrative assistant of a limo company, prep cook, chef, executive chef, pastry chef, bartender, basically a food loner, manager of a hotel, manager of a resort, front desk clerk for a spa, chef for a natural health & wellness center, did some travel & private cooking, taught gymnastics, taught cooking classes, cared for disabled individuals, graphic design for companies, photo restoration, outdoor portrait photography, social media marketer for restaurants, YOU. NAME. IT.

I could never honestly remember them all.

Working has always been a struggle. The ability and motivation is there. Ultimately I am a workaholic and can easily pour myself in to my work. I have a need for things to be produced perfectly and wavering from that is irritating, even the slim human error of 2% can bother me, and then in other aspects of life I could not care less. But when someone is paying me to produce something I would prefer it be as perfect as I can humanly allow.

Moronic concept in this day and age when identity is created in 5 minutes time and beating out your competitor boils down to a morale slaughter.

I am trying at this point to work from home, I can plenty of skills that I can market from home and I have a need after roughly 12-15 years in the work force to have stability and comfort in knowing that social entities will not interfere with my income. I am taking graphic design jobs and assisting companies with social media marketing for now and will be taking more jobs related to my skills as time goes on. For now my main focus is learning to focus. 

I have spent years diving in to work 60-90 hours a week, never less than 60 hours a week. 60 hours used to be a slow week for me and I'd start looking for side jobs. Being on the move works best for me, it's much like pacing and keeps my thoughts in a forward or less irritating motion. 

A lot of people on the autism spectrum would not have ever attempted that many job fields, and most NT's do not fill out as many job applications in a lifetime as I have had jobs.

So here's to figuring out how to sit still..