Employment

There's a lot going on at the moment and coping with "a lot going on" is becoming more of a struggle with age. Work, relationships, it's all affected somehow or another. 

I took a break from the kitchen and now I am going back for a little while. The book/memoir is finished and I am feeling the need for a distraction. This is the problem with a high functioning ASD mind. It mingles everything together in a very confusing pattern. Logic and Sensory Disorder? I'd sometimes rather just be lower functioning, but who's to say their less frustrated? It's doubtful but who knows.

I know what is expected of me because it has been my life's effort to understand the people around me, they surely won't be taking the time to understand me so someone has to figure it out. 

I know what to do at work before I am told to do it. If the saute cook is behind and I am caught up, I jump on saute and get things moving. Something most employees do not attempt. they are paid the same no matter how quickly they do the job. That is not good enough for me. I generally make a great employee, but the chaos or any mingling with people on a daily basis is simply too much. 

It shouldn't be this way, planning my bills and life around my level of anxiety rather than my skill and knowledge? And people wonder why this disorder seems to be plagued by a dark depression or overall sadness. I have excelled in over seven career fields that generally require a Bachelor's Degree, on a kindergarten education at that. I can achieve most anything mentally as far as learning it but then dealing with all the unspoken emotional feedback that people generate just disables all that knowledge in a split second. Just let me work from home.